Sunday, August 31, 2008

Happy Independence Day!

As a child I never really appreciated what it meant to be an Independent Country. Why did we need to be Independent? Why do we need to be self-suficient? Why did we need an independent economy? What could ever happen to us? Why did we need to govern ourselves? Why can't we let someone else do that for us and we just live as we used to? In a simple life.

As I grew up and traveled to a few places in the world and also learning about the stability of world peace. I learned that Malaysia is a very very special country. We have no war. We have no serious natural disasters. We have an abundance of nature's gifts. We are multiracial. We are one of the most developed of the developing Nations. But most important of all we are have a prosperous peaceful period, which I pray and hope will last.

For young and old, ignorant or knowledgeable. We need to celebrate our independence day to celebrate our gift of peace.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

If you are tired rest

It is so easy to do. If you are tired rest. If you are hungry then eat. If you feel sad then cry. If you are happy clap your hands.

But why is that when one is tired it is not that easy to be able to just rest. I have watched about 4 movies today. :) Really well spent weekend huh. I also breastfed baby, changed his nappy, stared at him throughout the day. Pumped milk twice. Fed my kiddo his medicine. Had an argument with MOH. Made peace with MOH. Ate breakfast, lunch and dinner. Also went FBing for an hour. Hmm I should get some sleep. Tomorrow is a long day.

My helper is gone for the weekend. I am still worried about my work. Hmmm I should start but I am sooooooooo happy enjoying my holiday. Feeling guilty? yes.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Politics Permatang Pauh

Honestly I am a politic dunce. I do not care or know anything about politics.

However Anwar winning it is very scary for me as a Sabahan. I still remember how sad and cheated I felt when PBS won in 1994, only to lose due to the massive numbers of jumps. How can the vote of the people be soo blatantly disregarded. How could our own leaders fall to such low standards. It was due to this incident that my believe of the system fell to ruins. Remember who was behind all those jumps in the pass. Check out the nekad climatologists page.

I understand Malaysia needs a change in the political atmosphere. Yet I hope it is not this one. Very scary indeed. I likened it to seeing how the old "Servay Penampang" use to arrange their electrical department. The wiring were here and there and I was saying to myself.. It looks like they will surely have a fire problem here in the future and then hearing that it burnt down. Hopefully not. But no surprise hey?

10 days old and 4.3 kg

The nurses from KD Limbanak came over after lunch yesterday. I was shocked to find that my son had gained approx 750 g over ten days. How amazing is that?

Well that is what you get from a continuously drinking, peeing and pooing baby. In the first few days he was consistently attached to me. Which was different to during my Kiddo's time. I guess it was because this time my milk took a while to come. My baby would pee and poo sooo often I was wondering if I should start plugging his behind to stop things from coming out. Anyhoo... although he is not as consistently stuck to my breast now, he would pee as soon as after feeding. I would basically go through more than ten nappies per twelve hours with this kid. Luckily I have someone to help me witht he washing.

I was also planning my baby's full moon. Guess what? His full moon falls bang in the middle of the Ramadhan month. Oh dear. My MIL and I decided to push it back to two months later. So I do not have to be so busy yet.

I still have a nagging feeling I should start doing some work now. Geez... I have been so happy not thinking about work... aw all good things will come to an end.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Tired and getting easily irritated

This morning I woke up feeling okay. However it is almost noon and I feel like I have walked a million miles and am damn tired. I am also thinking so many weird and stupid things. I wonder why I am so exhausted and irritable. Let me see. I woke up at about quarter to nine. So that means I have only been awake for 3 hours.

Last night I stayed up late cause I was not sleepy. I woke up late then had breakfast while watching my kiddo play with his bubble making machine. Thanks sweet little sister (I know you are not so little but you are still my little sister). She got this cool bubble making machine for my kiddo from Toy's r us. Anyway. I finished breakfast. Breast fed baby as well as to pumped about 5 oz of milk for baby for storage. Entertained my kiddo. Changed my baby's nappy a few times. Had my mom come over to give baby a bath. Took my bath and now I am BLOODY KNACKERED!!!!

Oh dear. Full morning. I need to got o sleep. Sweet dreams...

Monday, August 25, 2008

C-section vs SVD

For those who had never come upon these terms. A C-section is a cesarean cut on your lower abdomen to bring out your baby. This is something most people do only if they fail to have an SVD due to; baby breech position, baby too big (the case with my first son), baby having complications etc. However it is very famous with the celebrities who are too posh to push. A term coined in the UK for people like Posh spice. :) Anyway an SVD stands for Spontaneous Vaginal Delivery. I am like, what??? duh... what is so spontaneous about hours of contractions which is ended only by heavy pushing.

Anyhoo, my verdict. Since I have had personal experience of both. Do the SVD. No matter how painful it is... it is still one of God's most amazing creations. I think sometimes God has a sick sense of humour or maybe balance. I am not sure. The pain of childbirth and the pleasure of having your baby in your arms. It is like having the highest mountain and the lowest valley wrapped in one moment in time. Having natural birth is really normal. Yet it is the most scary of all experiences which I still would not remove for all the gold in the world. Crazy huh. 28 hours of labourous contractions and I can still say that. Common I am not a superwoman. I was scared shit of the pain. I asked for an Epidural. Which was suppose to block the pain. It did that only for my right leg.

Aduhhhhhhh.... LOL dear Dr Anesthetist if u are reading this. I can tell you honestly I was cursing you for your half body job on me... however I do love you and won't mean you harm otherwise. I agree that my body is not the easiest to do an epidural on. Actually I am thankful that I still had feeling in my left side. This helped me push my son out. I heard that some pain is important to be able to tell when the right time to push is. I concur this fact from experience. I did do 3 pushes for every contraction I felt and after the 9th push My baby was out. You see God works in amazing ways. And yes I don't blame Dr Anesthetist. Because for all the pain I felt in the last 3 hours before childbirth. I had my leg go numb on me for almost 24 hours after childbirth. My right leg was practically rebellious to my command to move. So I was half an invalid for that length of time.

My experience of having a C-section was bad. I really did want an SVD with my first baby. However due to no cervical dilation, big baby problem and fetal distress I had to be cut open. Now I have a scar for both. One on my abdomen and the other down under. I got no fear of the loss of feeling or rubbish people go on about sex after natural delivery. I think that is for stupid people. If two people really love each other. Whatever feeling it is connected with love has nothing to do with lust. So if any husband's complain. Tell them to go to hell. Having a C-section is as painful as an SVD. It is just in different ways. With C-section the pain is after the child birth. It is painful to walk or to lift anything and it last for about a week or two if you are lucky. If you have proper help at home it would be easy. However if you are alone or have a no good husband who thinks you should be up and running then you are in for a shitty time. You can not lift anything heavy, in my case my heavy baby. You worry about your wound opening up. You have difficulty walking. You have difficulty sleeping. You have difficulty sitting. You have difficulty showering yourself. You have difficulty breastfeeding. Oh mio dio. I totally slagged off c-section. Well I am glad it did help me bear my first son but to do it again. I pray never.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Look at what the Stork brought in?

Raphael Olivin Moosom

Big happy smiles. Finally my handsome son is born. In the evening of the 18th of August, in the year of 2008. I delivered My darling son to this world. He weighed 3.55 kg that day in Likas Hospital, labour room number 5. At about 10 pm we were finally discharged to our Ward bed 18.

As the Doctor placed this precious bundle of joy on my chest for the first time. Covered in vernix and blood. I could not help but feel the happiest I have ever been in my life. I love you my son. Strange that just an hour before that moment, I was cursing and screaming my head away. Wishing I had opted for C-section instead. 28 hours I laboured to bring you into this world. I would not wish that pain on anybody else. Imagine that your hips being reshaped in the span of 24 hours to allow a baby of approximately 10 cm to 15 cm in diameter to go through. Ooooh... very painful indeed. I know other women may have it easier but I think mine was ultimately difficult owing to having had a sporty background. Whatever it is. I did asked for painkillers. In the first 12 hours they gave me pethidine. By the time I was 4 cm dilated, which was 8 am the next day, they allowed me Epidural. However even after the painful administration of Epidural. Only my right hips and leg was anesthetised. So I still felt the pain of labour in my last 6 hours before delivering my son. I was crying for c-section, I was begging to have an operation. Ha ha ha. By that time they checked me and told me I was ready to deliver the baby. I was 10 cm dilated. So my tremendous pain was the crowning, hmmm that is a thought. Good I told myself I passed that and now to PUSH!

Pushed I did with all my might. MOH was there to support, although he did ask to be excused, I appreciate that he did say a few supportive words which worked well on me. The doctors were also good in advising how to push the right way. After 6 pushes my baby's head was out. Next I had an episiotomy. Another 3 pushes, baby was out. Very very very amazing experience.

Contractions? Not yet. This is a day before the Pitosine

Me and my boys. My Kiddo not very happy with My Baby.

Hi, I am your big brother! Wanna play?

My two boys

Monday, August 11, 2008

Jovial and full of life

I thought about you recently and in my heart I was celebrating the fact that you had soo much of life even towards your old age. I never expected you to leave us so soon (00.45 am 11/08/08). I enjoyed your jovialness and your love for life. The way you would seize the day and just have as much fun as you wanted to.

You were always the life of the party. You treated everyone of all walks of life with the same attitude. Happy and warm. You make people feel they are appreciated and loved. I know Penampang will miss your presence at every "Keramaian" (party). I miss you already.

You remind me of my own Grandma, your Aunty as well. I miss my "Ina". She was strong and decisive. Always had a mind of her own. My Dad did mention that he thinks I have been made similiar to you and Ina. That is an honour I can not take for granted. You were both strong and believed in your ideas. The only difference was that you were more accessible to everyone at any time. I know you would not hesitate to talk to Kings or peasants any time of the day. In fact I love your idea of fun. If I ever grow to be as old as you were I would want to be like you. Jovial and full of life.

Rest In Peace Aunty Tingguning. I know you will have a special place in Heaven. May God Bless You.

The photo below was taken on Tadau Kaamatan 2006. From Joyce's Blog

I am like a bird - Eagle.. woo hoo..

Your Power Bird is an Eagle
You are spiritual and able to soar to great heights.
You are a true inspiration, and many people look to you for guidance.
And you are quite demanding in relationships... but you're worth it.
People know that you will become even greater than you imagine.

The Keys to Your Life - Shite! truth reverberates.

The Keys to Your Life
Anything good in your life comes from you having the strength to make good decisions.

You know how to assess a situation before you leap into action.

Anything bad in your life comes from fooling yourself or clinging to illusions.

Be strong enough to see the world clearly. Learn from your mistakes.

My Shoe Type - Oh I am common... :)

You Are Sneakers
You are creative, funky, and forward thinking.
You are cool, but you are still approachable.

You are stylish and edgy, but you aren't a slave to fashion.
You tend to put your own spin on trends.

You tend to have a fast paced, busy lifestyle.
Not a lot of people can keep up with you!

You should live: Near nature

You should work: In a job that keeps you on the go

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz - Who would have guessed

You Are Bert
Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you lovable - even if you don't love them!

You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you

You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil

How you live your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others