Whatever!!??!!. I am in the mood to just rebel. I just had a very very tough few weeks. I do not think it will end. Tomorrow there is a meeting I have to chair. The next day another meeting to show my face in. A meeting which I think is just another time waster. Sigh... somethings about my job I love... the others I hate.. I have not blogged for ages because I have not had time and I wanted to focus on work. However I agree with nekad climatologist. He uses blogging as therapy. LOL. I mean. Who sincerely can say they do not use blogs as a therapy session. Shrinks must be really feeling the pinch this cycle of recession. The boom of internet blogging which did not exist ten years ago. Amazing.
You know in three years of marriage I have had grounds for a divorce, repeatedly thought of it. But today I can not. I keep on seeing grounds for keeping the marriage. How is that possible. Is it not the path of the broken hearted to rage and to leave and lead another life? I thought of that. I would advice myself to do just that. It is not like I am a coward and do not want to join the 70% of divorcees. Nah.. I am not like that... I just do not see the point. Why do you need to divorce? Why did you work so hard to be with someone who gets you just to fight tooth and nail to leave the same person.. just because he grew to be not getting you at all?.. IT IS RIDICULOUS... nah.. I choose to just lead a peaceful life.. take it or leave it.. follow my own gut feeling of how to live.. LOVE, LAUGH AND LIVE.. so simple...
Life is hard enough without us trying to make it complicated. sigh.. But I will be making my life complicated soon. ARGGHHH... it is not that I do not like to do research but I feel guilty that I will have to sacrifice time with my kids.. This is what I am most angry about today. I can not finish all my work in one day and then also progress in research. My kids are at home waiting eagerly for me to come home and I feel bad. But if I dont do my work.. I feel bad... there is no way out of this.. I have to choose... SOO SAKIT HATI (so painful my liver.. ROFL that's the direct translation). Which way to go. I don't want to use my children as excuse but I do not also want to make them lose time with me.. uwaa.. well I better go home and try and spend time with them.
by the way I went to Tambunan on a job with my Hubby as my driver and my babies as navigator (like real). It was fun..
Check out these tiles.. Perkasa hotel Tenom a blast from the past...
And guess what we tried stopping by the Taman in Tenom but it was closed on monday
see this can really get me drunk and forget about all my problems.. eh?
Tenom is really not that backward.. it has a seven E
Look at me and My Baby... I don't want him to ever grow up.
Ridoxolitolamatini.... by the way if anyone is curious about what this means.. hmm I created it.. and it means I am angry, frustrated, tired, miss having martini and awfully lots of fun with my mates.. LOL.
I am like a bird - Eagle.. woo hoo..
|Your Power Bird is an Eagle|
You are a true inspiration, and many people look to you for guidance.
And you are quite demanding in relationships... but you're worth it.
People know that you will become even greater than you imagine.
The Keys to Your Life - Shite! truth reverberates.
|The Keys to Your Life|
You know how to assess a situation before you leap into action.
Anything bad in your life comes from fooling yourself or clinging to illusions.
Be strong enough to see the world clearly. Learn from your mistakes.
My Shoe Type - Oh I am common... :)
|You Are Sneakers|
You are cool, but you are still approachable.
You are stylish and edgy, but you aren't a slave to fashion.
You tend to put your own spin on trends.
You tend to have a fast paced, busy lifestyle.
Not a lot of people can keep up with you!
You should live: Near nature
You should work: In a job that keeps you on the go
The Sesame Street Personality Quiz - Who would have guessed
|You Are Bert|
You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you
You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil
How you live your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others