Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Feeling like jello

It is a tender morning. Today is week 3 of my survival count-up. I was okay in the pass few days. What happened this morning? I do not know. I just feel very tender, panicky, scared, worried and sad. All these emotions for me and my children.

I pray to God for strength and calmness.

I need to release this control I have over this issue. I need to surrender to God, his Angels and Saints. They are all around me and they remind me so often that they appreciate my struggle and I need to let them help.

I need to appreciate myself. I have done some wrong things and some right things. But I can not be harsh on myself for the wrong things I do. I need to focus on the right things. I am on the right path. I want to have faith.

I am progressing steadily. I am moving forward. My proposal and my side income projects are there and I am working towards them.

I need to stop worrying. Worrying is like a magnet for negative things to happen to me and my family. I need to focus on the positives in my life.

3 weeks, I have done well.

I need to sing that "I feel pretty" song again. :)

4 comments:

Zan said...

You are one STRONG lady, Rach! *hugs*

laura pamella said...

*Squeeeeeezeeeeeeeeeeee* Thats a big Hug from me honey, u r too cool for words, Go on ma son! xoxo

Doc Rogue said...

:)thanks u two..

Rob said...

Don't worry - I'll join in :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L7BQRGXFLJs

I am like a bird - Eagle.. woo hoo..

Your Power Bird is an Eagle
You are spiritual and able to soar to great heights.
You are a true inspiration, and many people look to you for guidance.
And you are quite demanding in relationships... but you're worth it.
People know that you will become even greater than you imagine.

The Keys to Your Life - Shite! truth reverberates.

The Keys to Your Life
Anything good in your life comes from you having the strength to make good decisions.

You know how to assess a situation before you leap into action.

Anything bad in your life comes from fooling yourself or clinging to illusions.

Be strong enough to see the world clearly. Learn from your mistakes.

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You Are Sneakers
You are creative, funky, and forward thinking.
You are cool, but you are still approachable.

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You tend to put your own spin on trends.

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Not a lot of people can keep up with you!

You should live: Near nature

You should work: In a job that keeps you on the go

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You Are Bert
Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you lovable - even if you don't love them!

You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you

You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil

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